She was only thirty – four years young but during this dark, endless night her heart would age over sixty years. Her body was exhausted and weak, she did not even realize it. Love, the strongest love one can experience between another person kept her pressing on as she stayed watch at his bedside.
The moonlight silently covered the cold hospital room.
Where had the sun gone ?
Where did the time disappear to ?
It had all slipped away as the prayer was flowing from her soul (scripture feed, spirit lead.) “Please heal him from head to toe, let him dance and smile.”
Only once in those fifteen hours did the words ‘let your will be done’ escape through her lips.*Matthew 6:10 Lets not my will but your will be done on earth as is in heaven. Hope, trust and tears accompanied those words. She knew His will may not be the same as a mothers.
In her heart, in the foundation of her very being she knew his will was love, always love. *Isaiah 55:8-9 “For my thoughts are not your thoughts, neither are your ways my ways” declares the Lord. “As the heavens are higher than the earth, so are my ways higher than your ways and my thoughts higher than your thoughts.”
*Jeremiah 29:11 “For I know the plans I have for you” says the Lord ” Plans for good and not for disaster, to give you a future and hope.”
This night would change her.
Memories of lying next to him. Holding his hands and softly kissing his forehead. A whisper coming not from any lips but strait to her heart ” I have him, I have him, I HAVE HIM.” The Lord has him.
Never leaving his side, always leaning onto her saviors promises.
*Romans 12:12 Be joyful in hope, patient in affliction, and faithful in prayer.
*Hebrews 13:5 Never will I leave you, never will I forsake you.
*1 Peter 5:7 Cast all your cares upon the Lord for he cares for you.
*Psalms 33:4 His word is right and true. He is faithful in all he does.
*2 Corinthians 14:18 So we fix our eyes not on what we see but on the unseen. For the seen is temporary and the unseen is eternal.
*2 Corinthians 12:9 My grace is sufficient for you, it is made perfect in your weakness.
She couldn’t see it in this dreary moment but this time with him in her arms, lost in prayer was a precious GIFT. Time to have him just a little while longer.
*1 Corinthians 13:13 And these three things remain; faith, hope, and love; the greatest of these is Love.
Just as the pink early sun broke through the already hot August sky, her prayers were answered. He was healed !
He was perfect from head to toe. His blue eyes sparkled as he was dancing… in paradise.
*John 14:3 I will go and prepare a place for you. I will come back and take you with me so that you may be where I am.
*2 Corinthians 5:1 For we know that when this earthly tent we live in is taken down, we will have a house in heaven and eternal body made for us by God himself and not by human hands.
* Luke 23:43 Jesus answered him, “Truly I tell you, today you will be with me in paradise.”
The strongest Love.
I will never forget how the soap suds glistened from the orange afternoon sun. My arms elbow deep in the dish water as I finished the lunch dishes. It was in this moment I felt the words ‘just love’ placed upon my heart.
I had been in a season where I was unsure where the Lord was leading me. My days were filled with taking care of a home and three amazing daughters. Sometimes I felt like life was just trying to keep me busy but that is not how I wanted to live. I wanted to make the moments count. This life is nothing without His love. He is in all of the details and I do not want to miss a thing, always thankful for His amazing grace.
They were just two little words ‘just love’ was it simply that easy? *Matthew 5:44 but I tell you love your enemies, and pray for those who persecute you. *Colossians 3:14 and above all these virtue’s put on love, which binds them all in perfect unity. Love is not love until it is given away.
It is anything but simple! I am so grateful to serve a God whom loves his children so much that he provided us with the perfect example of love in his son Jesus Christ. *John 15:12 my command is to love each other as I have loved you. *John 3:16 for God so loved the world that he gave his only begotten son so that whosoever believeth in Him should not perish but have everlasting life.
Grow where you are planted. Be still and know he is God. Always have faith in his word. These are the words running though my mind as I plant the peace lily into my garden. We are His masterpiece, created in his image. We are more precious than jewels. Our Lord has laid out grate works for each and everyone of us. Works that will be accomplished as He directs our footsteps, refines us to be more like Him. He walked with us yesterday and will be beside ust tomorrow. *Ephesians 2:10 For we are Gods masterpiece, created in Christ Jesus to do good works, in which God prepared in advance for us to do. *Psalm 119:105 Thy word is a lamp unto my feet, and a light unto my path.*Proverbs 3:15 She is more precious than rubies; nothing you desire can be compared with her.
*Deuteronomy 31:8 it is the Lord who goes before you. He will be with you or forsake. Do not fear or be dismayed
Just Love… Matthew 22:37-39 Jesus replied “LOVE THE LORD YOUR GOD WITH ALL OF YOUR HEART AND WITH ALL YOUR SOUL AND WITH ALL YOUR MIND; this is the GREATEST COMMANDMENT. And the second is like it: LOVE YOUR NEIGHBOR AS YOURSELF.
*1 John 3:1a “See what great love the father has lavished on us; that we may be called His children of God; and that is what we are.
We were created to love and to be loved.
Crimson ~ The color of the blood that was spilt at the cross for our sins.
Red ~ My little boys red hair, his beloved baseball cap and his favorite color.
My daughters hair has lightened to a golden but the Irish attitude still farcie and tender burn within their hearts.
Hope ~ It keeps me getting up in the mornings. Putting one foot in front of the other. Hope is what keeps my eyes focused up, always up.
* Hebrews 6:19 We have this hope as an anchor for the soul, firm and secure. It enters the inner sanctuary behind the curtain.
* Hebrews 11:1 Now faith is confidence in what we hope for and assurance about what we do not see.
Writing use to be an inessential part of who I was. That was before grief stole it away. In a single moment it was as if my past, present and future were shattered into a million unidentifiable pieces. Through prayer and tears the words returned. They were like an old friend. I was so excited about the reunion I could not wait to put pen to paper but the panic attacks and shaking returned. I began to think the words were a mistake … that was a lie. They were a gift and gifts are meant to be shared not tucked away in a forgotten book on a dark shelf (*1 Peter 4:10 As each has received a gift, use it to serve one another, as good stewards of God’s varied grace.) My fingers are steady on the key board so I will give this a try. As nervous as I am this is me grateful, honest and sharing. I pray this space is used to bring Him glory (*1 Corinthians 10:31 So, whatever you eat or drink, or whatever you do, do it all for the glory of God.)